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    Shane Hollander comes to the library because it is quiet, because nobody asks him for anything there, and because there he can be a man choosing a book instead of the story everyone thinks they already know.

    Ilya Rozanov has always been better at noticing things than asking questions.

    The books Shane touches.
    The ones he brings back.
    The hour he comes in.
    The way he says thank you like he is apologizing for needing anything at all.

    At first, they only talk about books.
    It is easier that way.

    Until it isn’t.

    Or: a slow burn librarian AU.

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    23 Oct 2026

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    Shane Hollander doesn't know what he is. He knows what he wants. For a long time, he tells himself those are different things.

    Ilya Rozanov knows what he is. He can't control what he wants. For a long time, he tells himself those are the same thing.

    They’re just boys who handle it badly—from a junior tournament in Canada to the NHL draft to the moment a security camera at the end of a hallway changes everything

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    Shane and Ilya are discovered before they even play their first game

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    18 Oct 2026

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    18 Oct 2026

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    “Rozanov, Ilya-- can you hear me? Fuck! Are you okay?” He asked, frantic. There was so much blood, people were running towards them. He could hear phones being dialled, could feel the presence of others around them.

    Ilya’s eyes were open, but it was as if he were looking past him, up towards the sky above. He coughed once and blood sputtered out, dribbling down his face "Mama." He said softly.

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    Since Shane was a young boy he has been able to rewind time. He had never done it for anything huge, just small things here and there.

    Then Ilya Rozanov died in front of him.

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    18 Oct 2026

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    In part one of this series, Language Barrier, Shane and Ilya met in Russia the summer before their rookie year, when Shane was tutoring English at a summer hockey camp. They fell hard and came into the draft with full intentions of continuing to hook up at every opportunity.

    This story picks up where Language Barrier left off. Ilya's in America now, and the hockey world knows they're friends, not rivals. But there's still a gaping chasm between what they want, and what they're allowed. They're in their rookie years and trying to juggle this secret desperate lust of theirs while doing this incredibly difficult thing, miles apart, and Ilya is no longer in his familiar milieu, and that shit is HARD, y'all.

    Luckily for the boys, the author is very much on their side.

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    18 Oct 2026