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i don't think i'm sick, but i think it's an infection by fightingsnails
Fandoms: Six of Crows Series - Leigh Bardugo
08 May 2026
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Jesper was a thrill chaser, he knew that. Had been scolded for it his whole life. Like there was some restless animal under his skin, scraping at the walls in a desperate attempt to get out, to get some attention. He drank and smoked and caused trouble just to try and sedate it a little. Made himself the center of attention by telling stories that nobody wanted to hear just so that he had some eyes on him. Jesper knew that it was a problem, but for a long time he didn’t care. It only mattered when he was alone, when there was no one there or nothing to take to make him feel alive. He had turned to a different sort of thrill, one that could only be done by himself and behind closed doors.
aka suicidal Jesper
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09 Aug 2026
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The love of Dennis's life dies. He copes. (He doesn't).
Jack is just caught in the cross fire.Series
- Part 1 of Army Dreamers
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08 Jul 2026
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You believe me like a God, I destroy you like I am by itwasneveraphasemom
Fandoms: The Pitt (TV)
18 Apr 2026
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Robby has always been good at being believed in.
Samira Mohan is the kind of doctor who listens too long, cares too much, stays when she should move on. The kind of person who still thinks there’s something worth saving in the way people are treated, even here, even now. Robby sees it immediately and mistakes it for something that needs fixing.
He builds her sharper. Faster. Smaller.
She trusts him anyway.
There is something almost holy in the way she believes in him. There is something deeply human in the way he ruins it.
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29 Jun 2026
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“— those stinkin’ fags,” his dad had laughed then, shook his head in amusement and clapped his hand on Colin’s shoulder. He kept telling his story, something about those stinkin’ fags, and didn’t notice the way Colin didn’t say another word until they got back to the house.
Now, about a decade later, Colin thinks he can still hear his dad’s voice in the back of his head.
Stinkin’ fag echoes after him in the locker room. It chases him away from the casual touches that his teammates shower each other with. It suffocates him every time he’s pressed against a dank bathroom wall in a shady bar with shit lighting. It haunts him in the mornings when he crawls out of a stranger’s bed.
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15 Jun 2026
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But Dennis had a secret.
He fought.
Not in a gym. Not in anything legal.
Underground. Cash fights. No names, no paperwork, no questions.
He had not gone looking for it at first. He had overheard someone talking in a bar, desperate and half drunk, saying it was easy money. Dennis had been desperate too.
He was not great, but he was not bad either. Good enough to get paid. Good enough to cover groceries, gas, and the little things Trinity’s house always seemed to need.
He knew it was wrong. He was training to save people, not hurt them. The hypocrisy sat heavy in his chest every time he wrapped his hands.
Sometimes, late at night, after a shift where Robby had smiled at him too softly or Abbot had looked at him for too long, Dennis would stand in a warehouse that smelled like sweat and rust, his hands taped and his jaw already tight, and wonder when exactly his life had split in two.
One under fluorescent lights, trying to become someone better.
One in the dark, doing what he had to in order to survive.
And he knew, with a certainty that made his stomach twist, that sooner or later those two lives were going to crash into each other.
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28 May 2026