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Lawrence and Ali - Merry Christmas, Please Don't Call by Squadz
Fandoms: Lawrence of Arabia (1962)
01 Dec 2025
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Happy “Merry Christmas, please don’t call” season to those who celebrate!!
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Yes it's true, Sufjan Stevens wrote this song for them.
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Nicolò and Yusuf didn't get along as children - though not through any fault of Nicolò.
Now, after all these years, Nicky gets a chance to apologize when Joe suddenly shows up at his office, trying to coax the temperamental coffee machine into cooperation.
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- Part 19 of Advent Calendar 2022
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“That was stupid,” Keane says, brushing Nicky’s cheek in a mimicry of a caress. “But if you’re not going to shut up, I guess I’ll just have to keep your mouth busy."
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Keane decides he'd rather ride in the armored van with Joe and Nicky than ride with Copley.
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Nicolò was caressing him so tenderly, kissing his skin so softly, treating him so reverently, that Yusuf wanted to scream. He hated it when Nicolò was acting so – so loving. Because it was only showing Yusuf what he was missing.
Nicolò didn't love Yusuf. Yusuf knew this for a fact, because Nicolò never answered when Yusuf said I love you. He never gave Yusuf a compliment, even though Yusuf went out of his way to praise Nicolò. Yusuf called Nicolò hayati and ya amar and ya rouhi and ya albi all the time. Nicolò knew enough Arabic to understand the words, and yet all Nicolò ever said was ‘Yusuf’ in his soft, halting voice. Yusuf recited poetry for Nicolò – poetry both by his own hand and by the greatest poets – and Nicolò listened carefully, and smiled his barely there smile, but he never responded in kind.
So it was clear that Nicolò didn’t love Yusuf.
And it hurt Yusuf more than he could ever have imagined, to love somebody with every cell in his body and not have that love returned.
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Or, how do you know somebody loves you?
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Dance with your Demons by Schattengestalt
Fandoms: Lawrence of Arabia (1962), Seven Pillars of Wisdom - T. E. Lawrence
04 Sep 2026
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After his return from Deraa, Lawrence decides to confront his trauma by exposing himself to his fears.
Ali!
His whole body jerked where he lay as if hit by yet another lash. He would see Ali upon reaching Azrak, and although he planned on leaving to meet Allenby as soon as possible, they would still have time together. Time, they could spend however they wanted, and if Lawrence hadn’t misread the situation completely, Ali would be more than amenable to his advances.
He would proposition him, Lawrence decided; resolve settling in his stomach along with fluttering nerves. Ali would help him confront his demons and sweep away the debris cluttering his soul; his integrity could never be rebuilt, but he might be able to forget it had ever existed.
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In the sniper's nest, Nicky is both the priest and the executioner. Even immortals need a confessional.
(Or, how Andy dies.)