Voidflower

a vintage-style photograph of a jacob's sheep ram. the ram has four curved horns.



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    Shane’s ex-girlfriends keep coming out as queer. He’s trying to be supportive, he really is, okay? Listen, he’s an ally! But it’s sort of becoming a problem. For pretty obvious reasons, because people are definitely starting to notice—Ilya most of all.

    (AKA, I give Shane the most absurd queer community and convoluted coming-of-age journey of all time and it still somehow gradually makes things better in the long run.)

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    25 Oct 2026

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    “Ilya… What’s wrong? You can talk to me.”

    Ilya shakes his head, mouth trembling. “I— I don’t—”

    He does not know why he is feeling sad again. It should be so easy. This life is everything Ilya has ever wanted, that he honestly doubted he would ever get to experience. Yes, he knew it would not be perfect, living with Shane, that he might get sad sometimes like his mother, but he did not expect to feel hurt like this.

    And how can he explain that it hurts, let alone why? That would be so painful for Shane to hear. He might feel like he is being a bad husband if he can’t fix it, like he is failing Ilya. That would be horrible because Shane is a wonderful husband and Ilya is the failure. Shane is trying to understand him, to help, and Ilya can’t give him that because it’s not something Shane can fix.

    Ilya and Shane are married, the team is great, the sex is awesome. There are no problems. Okay, some problems.


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    25 Oct 2026

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    Podfic by klb of love reveals by rockinhamburger

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    “Ilya… What’s wrong? You can talk to me.”

    Ilya shakes his head, mouth trembling. “I— I don’t—”

    He does not know why he is feeling sad again. It should be so easy. This life is everything Ilya has ever wanted, that he honestly doubted he would ever get to experience. Yes, he knew it would not be perfect, living with Shane, that he might get sad sometimes like his mother, but he did not expect to feel hurt like this.

    And how can he explain that it hurts, let alone why? That would be so painful for Shane to hear. He might feel like he is being a bad husband if he can’t fix it, like he is failing Ilya. That would be horrible because Shane is a wonderful husband and Ilya is the failure. Shane is trying to understand him, to help, and Ilya can’t give him that because it’s not something Shane can fix.

    Ilya and Shane are married, the team is great, the sex is awesome. There are no problems. Okay, some problems.

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    25 Oct 2026

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    “It helped that most girls were just excited I was talking to them. A lot were hockey fans? It made it easier. Like I could just talk with them about hockey until I had to, you know...”

    Shane had fucked puck bunnies? Multiple?

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    Before he started dating Ilya, Shane hooked up with women to convince his team and himself that he was straight. Ilya finds out and has a lot of feelings on the subject. Then he makes a plan.

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    20 Oct 2026

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    Ilya’s wearing one of Shane’s t-shirts and can’t bear to take it off when they get in bed. He can do one pillow, or three, or none, or really just Shane’s chest, or arm. He’s a fucking octopus, sprouts extra limbs just to have every inch of Shane’s body covered, enveloped, safe. He never uses the really expensive automatic blinds at the cottage because Ilya hates when they’re closed. He’ll hold his eyelids open with two fingers each at night just to keep looking at Shane for a few more minutes.

    “I love you,” he’ll say, eyes drooping, unable to fight it off, moonlight making his skin glow and his wintergreen fresh teeth sparkle in a sappy smile.

    And “I love you,” he’ll wake up with, before doing anything else.

    Maybe the only thing Shane really knows is that he’ll do anything at all to have this on each end of the day for the rest of his life. 

     
    or, all the ways shane wakes up to ilya throughout the years, and one time he falls asleep with him

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    19 Oct 2026