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  1. Public Bookmark 12

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    He'll never say it, but there is something he appreciates about Dazai. That he is not a secret. Everybody knows that, sometimes, Dazai Osamu likes to take that boy he picked up from the streets and fuck him until he cries.

    “But you wanted it, right? Sometimes at least. It wasn't always just me.”

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    19 Aug 2026

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    “You can sleep in here,” Chuuya calls out, back facing him as he exits the room. “You know where the blankets and shit are but I better see your ass gone in the morning, got it?” Dazai feels a bit of liquid falling into his lap and stiffens a bit in shock. He hadn’t even realized he was crying. “Dazai?”

    This time, Chuuya takes a glance back and Dazai doesn’t have time to hide himself before Chuuya’s already seen him and frozen.

    skk hatesex turns into subdrop...based off a tweet of mine

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    16 Aug 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 37

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    Chuuya's tight pants had a wet spot in the groin area the dampness was quite noticeable. The wet area continued to grow as his body continued twitching.chuuyas eyes closed tightly, his face flushed to his ears,his hand covering his mouth, trying to stifle his sounds.

    Wait.

    Since when does Chuuya have a pussy?!

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    12 Aug 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 79

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    It can’t end like this. Atsushi has mere minutes left, maybe less, and he can’t die listening to Akutagwa’s scolding and insults. Comfort has never come easily to Akutagwa, but he has to try. Atsushi deserves that much, at least.

    But Akutagawa can’t think of what to say. He can’t tell Atsushi that it’s fine, that he’ll be okay, or any of those trite, hollow reassurances. It’s not okay, and perhaps it never will be again — not without Atsushi.

    In his last moments, bloody and painful though they are, Atsushi deserves better than lies. So Akutagawa instead settles on the deepest truth he knows. Perhaps, here and now, the only truth.

    “You can’t die, you useless overgrown cat,” Akutagawa snarls, half-choking on a sob. “I love you, so you can’t die. Not when I love you.”

    Thinking Atsushi is dying in his arms, Akutagawa confesses his love, knowing he’ll never have another chance.

    But of course Atsushi, always the thorn in Akutagawa’s side, does something wholly unexpected.

    He survives.

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    12 Aug 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 14

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    Akutagawa has been wondering about Atsushi's more..feral side when he transforms. And what the chances are he project his hunting urges onto him.

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    12 Aug 2026