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    "But, you don't—" Shane starts, stutters out when Ilya rolls his hips again, sliding his hand down at the same time to palm Shane through his sweats. "You don't—want me."

    ...

    "Oh, Shane," he breathes out, nosing at the underside of Shane's jaw. "I promise you, kotik. I want."

    ...

    "Not the way I'd like to be wanted."

    Or: Ilya never agrees to come to the cottage, so Shane flies down to Boston to drag him back.

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    23 Sep 2026

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    GOT ME

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    The silence on the other end sharpens.

    “What the hell is that supposed to mean?” Buck snaps.

    Eddie flinches. “Nothing. I—”

    “No, come on, say it. What does that mean, Eddie?” Buck pushes, voice rising.

    He feels trapped, like the walls are closing in, like he’s been backed into a corner with no way out. His palms feel sweaty, chest rising and falling too fast, too shallow, like there’s not enough air in the room.

    He’s angry.
    He’s hurt.
    He’s confused.
    He’s jealous.

    It’s too much all at once, emotion piling on top of emotion with nowhere to go.

    And it keeps coming.

    And. And. And.

    His body is trembling under the weight of everything he can’t say, everything he didn’t know until now.

    “I’m just saying,” Eddie starts, “it’s only been a couple of weeks and now you’re fucking Tommy Kinard in my bedroom—”

    “It’s not your bedroom anymore,” Buck cuts in, his voice sharp. “You made sure of that, when you left.”

    Or; 8x11 coda

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    23 Sep 2026

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    didn't know hw was allowwwd

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    Shane: Mom.

    Shane: Are you aware that dad has unfettered internet access and is posting how to videos on YouTube calling himself Daddy David?

    Mom: Honey, it's fine. It's not that big of a deal.

    Shane: That might be the most insane thing you've ever said.

    Shane: And I have heard you threaten multiple coaches of mine with bodily harm.

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    21 Sep 2026

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    Req reading

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    Hazy: Okay, I just talked with Harris.

    Hazy: Ugly pants exchange for the next away game is a go.

    Shane: Didn't we just do this?

    Shane: Are we really going to subject ourselves to this again?

    Bood: Those were shirts, Hollander. 👕

    Bood: These are pants. 👖

    Bood: See the difference?

    Shane: There is not enough difference in the world to make me want to do this again.

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    21 Sep 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Also required reading

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    Shane: You all seriously want to do this?

    Shane: Like you know this is going to be on the internet forever, right?

    Ilya: Sorry everyone.

    Ilya: He still has this weird sense of self-preservation.

    Ilya: We're working on it.

    Bood: Come on, Hollander.

    Bood: It'll be fun!

    Bood: We'll all look like idiots together.

    Shane: That's not as comforting as you think it is.

    Evan: Is there a limit on the number of rainbows and dicks that can be on the shirt?

    Evan: Asking for the person I'm buying for who maybe definitely is named Shane Hollander.

    Shane: I hate all of you.

    Ilya: See you at the airport!! ✈️👕🏒

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    21 Sep 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Yesssss

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    "Shane," Ilya interrupts, knowing that if he lets Shane go on much longer, he really will be on the next flight back. And as tempting as it is, he really likes all the free shit Shane gets to bring home and he's in desperate need of a new watch after the last barbecue at Bood's went slightly awry. "I'm fine, I just have lice."

    There's a long pause, and though Ilya can't see Shane's face, he can imagine the exact look that's there. Forehead wrinkled, lips set in a thin line, his eyes moving slowly around the room as he tries to figure something out. "You're going to have to expand on that, I think."

    "Turns out the sleepover I hosted for the Pikes had more than a few uninvited guests," Ilya offers and he hears Shane exhale in relief at the explanation, making a mental note to ask when he gets home exactly what other scenarios were playing out in Shane's overactive brain.

    "I bet Hayden and Jackie feel awful."

    Ilya has about twenty apology texts from Jackie he knows he needs to respond to. "Yes, they do."

    "You're going to make Hayden suffer for this, aren't you?"

    He grins, loving how well Shane knows him without even a hint as to what Ilya has planned. "Yes, I am."

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    21 Sep 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    This is canon I know that it is

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    “Do you have a problem with heated blankets or something?”

    Does Eddie have a problem with—yes, obviously he has a problem with heated blankets.

    “We’re firefighters,” Eddie tries, attempting not to let on about his irrational hatred for an inanimate object. “We know better than to use heated blankets.”

    Good, that was good. Rational, logical, excellent. Surely Buck will—

    “Exactly,” Buck responds. “We’re firefighters. We know how to use them safely.”

    “When I was a kid, my friend’s grandma had one catch fire while she was using it,” Eddie blurts out. “Is that what you want to happen to us while we’re sleeping?”

    Buck snorts. “At least she wasn’t cold.”

    *

    (Eddie hates heated blankets. Buck has a cuddly solution.)

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    21 Sep 2026

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    das fuckin vute

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    “Stop it,” Buck huffs out, shuffling out of reach. “You’re being ridiculous.”

    “I’m not doing anything,” Eddie insists, sliding backwards until his socked foot touches Buck’s leg again.

    “You’re being a dick.”

    Buck attempts to move away again, and Eddie follows him, refusing to stop touching him with his socks until suddenly Buck’s not there anymore and a loud thump echoes throughout the room.

    “Did you just—”

    “Shit,” Buck mutters, and Eddie can vaguely see the shape of Buck’s body in the dark as he heaves himself up off the floor. “What the hell is wrong with you?”

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    (A pillow wall and socked feet lead to changes in Buck and Eddie's relationship.)

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    20 Sep 2026

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    eddie is in fact a cockslut

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    Bood
    what have you given her before?

    Ilya
    A fucking, mostly

    Bood
    CHEAP
    CHEAP GIFT GIVER

    Ilya enlists Bood & the Ottawa WAGs to help brainstorm ideas for his first proper Valentine’s Day with ‘Jane’.

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    19 Sep 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Bood put bad bunny on it

    Ilya who the fuck do you think you are talking to

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    Eddie: I’m coming over
    Buck: ok
    you had lunch? been thinking about this sandwich for days
    i can make it if we’re doing lunch
    like a Mediterranean pesto situation
    Eddie: Coming over to tell you that I’m gay and I need u to not be weird about it
    Buck: panini
    oh
    that was about that sandwich

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    18 Sep 2026

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    Yaaaaaaaaaaassssssssssssssssd queen

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    The first thing that happens is that Shane Hollander doesn't go and visit Boston Lily while they're in town for their game against Boston.

    The second thing that happens is that Shane Hollander goes to meet up with Boston Lily after they play against New York.

    The third thing that happens is that Ilya Rozanov goes missing.

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    17 Sep 2026

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    Hilarious

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    “You are planning to rob me or what?” He hears Rozanov call, and he can’t help but smile slightly even as he rolls his eyes, closing the door to the linen closet and feeling strangely lighter than when he opened it, reassured that he’s just trying to read into a blank page, that today doesn’t mean anything more than Rozanov doesn’t mind him being around, which is strangely flattering.

    “I don’t know,” he calls back. “Don’t Russians like diamonds and fur and stuff? Where should I start looking if I want to know what my options are?”

    He hears Rozanov laugh, and it makes him smile.

    When he joins him in the living room once more, Rozanov tugs him down to lean against him again. Shane goes easier this time, settling into it, knowing it doesn’t mean anything other than the fact that he just happens to be the closest warm body, the person on Rozanov’s roster who filled today’s slot.

    (the tuna meltdown doesn't happen) (this does not mean they get ANY better at communication)

    (or: how shane didn't realize he had a boyfriend for several months)

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    16 Sep 2026

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    omg i read this before and have no recollection

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    “Luch-Shane,” Ilya says, catching himself only at the last moment before he breaks their no pet names in the workplace rule. “Why don’t you get some air, yes? We can-”

    Shane’s anxiety takes a quick backseat to annoyance once more, at being handled like a child instead of a grown man, like he hasn’t been doing this just as long as Ilya, like he needs someone to tell him when to take a break.

    Like he deserved to have everything taken away from him because he couldn’t handle it to start with.

    “I’m fine,” he says, voice icy.

    The step he takes away is too big, farther than he meant to get from Ilya’s side, and the air between them feels both charged and icy.

    He isn’t quite bold enough to try and fix it.

    (shane is married and on the same team as his husband) (and all it cost him was his whole career and the life he spent years building beforehand) (but it's fine, really) (it's all so very, very fucking fine)

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    15 Sep 2026

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    here's the thing shane is aleways right and everyone else sgoyld sgove it

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    Shane should be here right now, should be in Ilya’s house. Ilya should be teasing him about being picky while going through delivery options for food on his phone. Shane should be discovering that Ilya has ginger ale in the fridge and the protein bars Shane mentioned liking in an interview in his pantry. He should be making out with Shane on the couch, sneaking a hand into his pants, teasing him about whether they can beat the deliveryman and arrive before he does. Shane was supposed to spend the night tonight, the Montreal team not set to leave until tomorrow afternoon because of potential bad weather in the morning. Shane should be fed and showered and ready to curl up in bed with Ilya tonight.
    But Shane is in a hospital.

    And Ilya is here.

    He pulls up Jane in his phone again. He presses call.

    “Hey, you’ve reached Shane Hollander-”

    Ilya closes his eyes and lets Shane’s voice roll over him.

    (canon divergence in which shane getting injured happens during a game in boston) (...which means shane then gets to go home with ilya to recover)

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    15 Sep 2026

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    so sweeeeet

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    “-can’t see each other again,” Ilya says, looking only at Shane’s hand, holding it so, so gently and stroking over Shane’s skin so, so softly. The soothing feeling of it makes it very hard to focus, but Shane tries very hard to do it anyway. “I tried-we tried, but this can’t happen again.” It takes a moment, but Shane finally manages to make sense of the words, and he lets out a soft noise of understanding.

    Ah. He’s apologizing that he won’t be able to see Shane in the hospital again before he leaves.

    “I understand,” he says, and he does. It was probably really hard for Ilya to get here even once, and it can’t be very long before his plane leaves. He’s sad, of course–they didn’t even get to spend time together, really–but it’s not like this will be the last chance they ever have to see each other. He gives Ilya his best attempt at a smile, and if it comes out a little sad, too, all Ilya does is reach out to stroke the backs of his fingers gently over his cheek.

    (ilya goes through with his plan to break up with shane in the hospital) (the problem? shane is too high to understand that he's being broken up with)

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    15 Sep 2026

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    epilogue tho

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    “You're being cruel, Ilya. Please just— stop.”

    Pain blooms across Ilya's expression, a brief lapse in form. He's quick to recover, furrowing his brow and pursing his lips, like Shane’s made more than a simple request, like he's got Rose Landry here in his lap, parading her around like Ilya has with all his women since rookie year. Like he has any right to that pain.

    “Oh, so this is what it takes to make you say my name without freaking out.”

    Or: Shane does not go home with Rose after the club.

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    14 Sep 2026

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    Omg poor shaney

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    Beneath the roiling irritation, Shane is pretty sure he’s going to feel stupid in about an hour about this argument.

    Right now, though, he’s in the middle of it and annoyed enough to stay there.

    “-any fucking sense,” he says, slapping the dishtowel in his hand down on the counter and only succeeding in winding himself up further when it hits a little puddle of dishwater that sprays droplets on him.

    Unfortunately, the easiest outlet for this frustration is also the person who started this argument in the first fucking place: Ilya.

    “It does not need to make sense,” Ilya says, arms crossed over his chest in a way that says he’s feeling just as ready to commit to the world’s most stupid fight about nothing as Shane is. “Is about feeling.”

    “And you feel like you would love a worm?” Shane asks, mirroring Ilya’s posture in a way that’s meant to be mocking.

    From the way Ilya’s jaw tightens, he noticed, and it sends a petty little thrill through Shane.

    (ilya tries to be sweet and let shane know he would love him even if he was a worm) (somehow it ends up turning into a fight)

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    14 Sep 2026

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    also ca non

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    “Hi,” Ilya says, his attempt at making his voice a purr lost to how fucking happy he is, to have this, to see Shane Hollander in a way no one else ever gets to. He crosses the room and kneels over him, pulling him up into a kiss that Shane gives him easily, making a sweet, soft noise that makes Ilya want to bite him with how cute it is. Instead, he gets a handful of the edge of the soft, fuzzy blanket to whip it off of Shane and replace it with his own body-

    -only to be stopped when the blanket turns out to be far, far fucking heavier than he anticipated, pulling him up short when his attempt at a flick ends with barely moving the edge before it flops back down with audible weight.

    (ilya versus shane's weighted blanket)

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    14 Sep 2026

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    th fuckign weighted blanket as a plot device

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    He gnaws at the guilt of his own actions the way Anya does her chew toys for days after, Shane clearly picking up on something going on with him but also giving him space to work it over in his head until he’s ready to share.

    Right up until they’re out at team dinner and the two other smokers at the table excuse themselves for a smoke outside and Shane looks to him expectantly-

    -only to frown when Ilya stays where he is.

    (how and why ilya finally gives up smoking)

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    14 Sep 2026

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    omg thia is canon

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    “Well there’s something you really don’t expect to see, especially after the final whistle”.

    Shane Hollander had always been known for being the golden boy of the NHL, wicked skills and a genuinely nice person, he is beloved by all. Which is why no one is prepared to witness their precious golden boy beat Scott Hunter vicously in a fight following their game.

    Or, Scott Hunter get's his ass beaten by Shane Hollander after his response to Shane's chirping goes too far. Then Ilya takes care of Shane and Kip chews Scott out for being an asshole

    An alternate storyline to the fight scene in Episode 3 of Heated Rivalry, in which Shane Hollander is also badass, not just precious.

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    14 Sep 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    HOW DID NOT BOOKMARK THIS FIRST TIME PREV KIRBY

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