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  1. Public Bookmark 26

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    Little Alex blinks sleepily and nuzzles his tiny face into the collar of his shirt. “It’s okay,” Alex says to the boy in his arms. “I got you.”

    Henry’s words come back to him, a flood of comfort through time and space: “They always say, 'hold yourself together,' so finally, you do.”

    Or: Alex is 37, married to Henry, and facing big changes in his life. A spiral and a strange cup of coffee sends him back in time, where he meets versions of his younger self and gives him something he’s always needed but never knew how to ask for: a hug.

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    17 Oct 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 27

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    When designing Alexander Gabriel Claremont-Diaz, God must have forgotten to include an off switch. 

    Alex doesn’t stop. It almost seems as if he doesn’t know how.

    Henry, to his credit, has always been able to force him to slow down before he burns out entirely.

    It’s not an arduous or tiresome task. Quite often, it’s the opposite. In Henry’s mind, there’s nothing as holy as witnessing Alex fall apart completely underneath his practiced fingertips.

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    18 Sep 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 60

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    It took Choi Jeongyo five steps to come back to his senses.

    Five steps away from Kang Jihye, and only a few more than that from Pio.

    Pio, whose stricken face was still painfully fresh in his mind—drained of color, lips parted, eyes glassy. Pio, who’d looked at him across the crowded living room as if every key Jeongyo struck were a knife between his ribs. Pio, the only person in this whole damn house he actually cared about, and probably the only one who actually cared about him—not just as an investment or a protégé or some poster-child prodigy but as a person. The only one who still cared about his existence when there was no piano in sight. The only person he really, truly trusted.

    Pio, who was alone. Alone, and in pain, and Jeongyo was walking away.

    He stopped dead in his tracks.

    (In which Jeongyo refuses to leave his closest friend to suffer alone, no matter what Kang Jihye says. My alternate ending for episode 4.)

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    14 Sep 2026

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    That day at the Rio de Janeiro Olympics, Alex comes across the very same Prince Henry who just dismissed him having a panic attack in a bathroom. The choice Alex makes then has ripple effects neither of them could have ever expected. What's the story like, when they actually are friends all along?

    “So, you’re going back to England tonight, and you’ll spend the next three days pretending you two are the closest and best of friends until we can put this mess behind us.”

    And there are reasons he hasn’t told anybody this, good reasons, even though he’s sure June and Nora saw through him ages ago. Faced with his mom’s disappointment, though, and with the realization that the entire world apparently thinks he hates Henry and would willingly shove him into a fucking cake, he can’t stay quiet.

    “But we are friends,” he says, vehement and serious. “We have been for years. He’s—he’s probably my best friend, actually, along with Nora.”

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    10 Sep 2026

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    chefs kiss

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    After one last peck, Henry finally pulls away, leaving a sore spot of hollowness where his touch had filled it before. Alex forces his face to stay even– he doesn’t want his boyfriend to feel guilty for doing what he needs to do, doesn’t want to feed into the assumption that Alex is helpless without him.

    Doesn’t want to be another obligation in Henry’s life that will one day grow to be too much to shoulder.

    When the door falls shut, leaving Alex alone with a house that is much too empty and silent without his family there, there’s a lump in his throat that he can’t quite swallow. He thinks of Nora, making jokes that Henry is a saint for putting up with him during exam season; he thinks of June who uprooted her entire life to take care of him during college– and finally, he thinks of Henry, gentle and perfect Henry, that has had to worry about others way too much in his life– and a stinging sense of dread settles over him.

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    Or, Alex's no good horrible very bad two weeks without Henry.

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    05 Sep 2026