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    Shane Hollander is the most sought-after goalie on the market in the 2015 offseason. The Bears are thrilled when they get the steal of the decade by signing him out from under Montreal. It’s even cooler that their captain is so close with Hollander. The two are like, best friends or platonic soulmates or something.

    Alternatively: 5 times the Boston Bears should’ve guessed that Hollander and Rozanov were totally gay for each other + 1 time when everyone knew (Except Carmy).

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    19 Aug 2026

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    Adorable.

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    Shane Hollander accidentally comes out to his hockey team after years of hiding his sexuality behind carefully crafted personas and unfinished coming out speeches. As the Metros slowly begin icing him out on and off the ice, Shane spirals between rage, grief, and self-discovery—while Ilya refuses to let him forget exactly who he is.

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    30 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    everybody is messy, especially Shane, who gets to be so so so angry

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    Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.

    No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.

    When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?


    “I thought we could go through the schedules and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”

    “A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.

    “It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.

    “And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”

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    23 Apr 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Incredible deep dive into Ilya's emotional headspace and (hilarious) growth.

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    "It was great not thinking about our stupid thing for ten whole minutes," Dean said. "How many ten-minute intervals are there between now and when we die?"

    Sam was looking at his mouth, and now that he knew to look for it, he wondered how often he'd missed it before.

    "Depends on how soon I can put a bullet in my brain," Sam croaked.

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    08 Oct 2025

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    It was a demigod or deity or something else ancient, because its whole deal was DESIRE and nothing else had been around for so long. Dean didn't want to take the case, but eventually he ran out of reasons to tell Sam 'no' that weren't I've got a lot of DESIRING I'd rather keep to myself, Sammy.

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    30 May 2025