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let me drown in your laughter (let me die in your arms) by karatekid1018
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
04 Jan 2026
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For a moment, Eddie is quiet.
He stares. Blinks. Stares some more, his mouth opening and closing around nothing.
And then all at once, he zeroes in on the photo collage across the room, and his body goes completely still.
They’re all couples. Happy, blissful, newly married couples, still in their suits and long white dresses, holding each other close beneath the familiar branches of a willow tree. The same branches billowing in the wind outside Eddie’s bedroom window.
A wedding venue. He woke up in a wedding venue.
His wedding venue.
Eddie wakes up on the morning of his and Buck’s wedding. Everything has been meticulously planned—the suit, the flowers, the venue. There’s just one problem: Eddie is straight, and he and Buck are just friends.
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25 Oct 2026
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The water rises faster than Buck can think.
It taunts them as he splashes through it, trying to leverage himself into different spaces around the beam. Together they push and pull at it. Together they wear out every aching muscle in their body and ignore every deeper twinge because if they stop, if they admit defeat—
That’s not an option.
But the water rises anyways.
The water rises and Eddie’s resolve diminishes with every inch closer it gets.
The water rises and Buck stumbles through it, creating tidal waves in his wake. It rises and his resolve rises with it. He’s not leaving Eddie here. He’s getting him out before the water rises above his head.
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Or, Buck's Eddie's air. In more ways than one.
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11 Oct 2026
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it could get easier (if you want it to) by biblionerd07
Fandoms: Brokeback Mountain (2005), Brokeback Mountain - All Media Types
23 Jan 2019
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Ennis decides he has more to say after their fight at the trailhead, so he makes a phone call. And it changes his life.
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19 Sep 2026
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Running to the frontlines from a childhood he never had. Taking a bat to the wall with his son in the next room. Having an affair with the spitting image of his dead wife.
Eddie knows he’s never been good at grieving, knows he’s never been good at losing what little he allows for himself in the first place. This is why he also knows his coping mechanisms can’t possibly get any worse.
Buck, as he so often does, makes him reevaluate his assumptions.
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Evan Buckley dies behind a wall of glass. It’s a shame that when he’s revived not three minutes later, no one is informed.- Language:
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15 Sep 2026
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Eddie wants to be capable of that kind of love so bad – of being loved like that. He wants it so much his teeth ache with the force of it.
Slowly, Chris shakes his head. “I guess not,” he finally decides. He picks his pencil back up, thinks for a moment before beginning to fill in his first answer.
Halfway through his sentence, he picks his head up to look at Buck. “You would look back,” Chris declares, like he knows this to be an unmitigated fact. He goes back to writing.
He says it simply, like grass is green, the sky is blue, and Buck would look back.
Eddie watches Buck take the words like a blow. His eyes widen and his chest physically stutters. “Yeah,” Buck says, the word cracking down the middle. Like he can’t help it, Buck turns his head back to Eddie. “I would.”
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15 Jun 2026
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“Remember how Ravi said I needed to get laid?” Buck asks at last.
Karen gasps, her hand coming to cover her mouth in shock. “Buck. You didn’t,” she sighs.
“What, you—” Hen looks like she can’t believe her ears, shaking her head. “You slept with your future nanny during the interview?
“That’s highly unprofessional,” Karen adds with a concerned frown.
Okay. Well. Maybe Buck shouldn’t have started there. “No! I— It was before, okay?”
Hen squints her eyes, trying to understand. “So, this man turns up to your house, you say hi, you have sex, and then you start asking about his former employers’ references?”
Or: Buck needs a nanny. Eddie is desperatly looking for a job. They might end up finding more than they asked for.
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06 Jun 2026
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all you can take with you is that which you've given away by fruitsdoesnotknow
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
31 Oct 2024
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There’s a nudge at his hand, a careful tap that finally makes him look up for the first time since they got there. Evan wipes his face hastily, trying to sniffle up the water in his eyes before anyone can see. He doesn’t want to cry, but sometimes he just can’t help it.
Because that’s his brother. That’s his big brother, in a hospital bed, with dark smudges under his eyes and a really bad cough that keeps getting worse, but he’s smiling at Evan like it’s all going to be okay.
All Evan heard was the machine. He counted the sounds, hoarded them, and wished he could just sit there and listen to the proof of his brother’s heart beating forever.
Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep –
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Daniel needed more. More surgeries, more transfusions, more time. Evan couldn't give that to him, but maybe, years later, thanks to Eddie and Christopher and Bobby, he'll realize. He was always enough for Daniel.
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- Part 13 of 911 Gotcha for Gaza Prompts
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31 May 2026
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Dear Captain Nash,
I know this email is kind of out of the blue, but I didn’t know who else to reach out to. I’m not even sure how to start this email. One time Buck and I signed up for this pen pal program, but the kid in Maine I was writing with gave up after two rounds of letters. It was during my ancient Egypt phase and I think I scared him off with my questions about mummies. Buck told me I was too cool for him anyway.
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When Chris starts going to church in Texas he reaches out to the only person he can think of who might have some answers, meanwhile Eddie uses his email to try and talk to God, and Buck... well Buck online shops mostly.
A season 8 rewrite told only through email.
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26 May 2026
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Eddie thinks he’ll really like that. It’ll feel good, to lean back in the seat and feel the sun on his face unshielded by the headrests blocking the view in front of him. It’ll just be him, and the road, and—
And there will be someone with him. He’s sure that there will be someone right there next to him. Someone who doesn’t fuss. Someone who isn’t worried. Someone who likes the same music as he does and doesn’t care where the car goes at all. Eddie doesn’t know who it will be yet, because he’s still little. But it’ll be someone who likes him a lot.eight-year-old eddie diaz fantasizes about the freedom of the open road; the fantasy follows him all the way to 2025. or: an eddie character study
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20 May 2026
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Mystery Work
Part of Sinnabonka_priv
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This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!
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18 May 2026
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“Huh, you know, I never thought about it like that,” Eddie says, out of the blue.
Buck glances up from his plate, “About what?” he asks.
“It actually makes sense— Us being together, I mean,” Eddie explains, casually, gesturing with his hands.
Buck almost chokes, “What?”
(Or, everyone in New México calls Eddie gay, assuming he’s with Buck. He thinks they might be onto something…)
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16 May 2026
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Looking down at the bottle’s label like he’s reading the countdown clock on a bomb, Eddie says, “Buck.”
“Eddie.”
Said Eddie huffs. Buck suspects he also had to fight back the urge to stomp his foot with that one. “I don’t need… I’m fine. It’ll go away in a couple of days; it’s only when I stretch weird, anyway, so—”
“Or, hear me out,” Buck interrupts coolly, “you could, I don’t know—relax? A few bubbles won’t bite, Eddie.” Then, softer: “It’s a muscle soak. It’ll help, I swear.”
Eddie holds out the bottle and points at it despairingly. “Citrus jamboree,” he whines.
“It’s a party,” Buck shrugs.
Or: 5 innocuous stops along Buck and Eddie’s cozy journey to forever, +1 destination
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12 May 2026
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“Your safety is my priority right now. How long have you been thinking about this?” he repeats.
Eddie wants to tell him that it only happened yesterday, but then he thinks about quarantine, and when Shannon died, and when she left for LA after he was discharged, and when he found out Chris was diagnosed with cerebral palsy, and when Shannon told him she was pregnant, and when he was ten and his dad yelled at him for crashing his new truck because his mom was in labor and nobody was around to take her to the hospital. He thinks about how he wanted to disappear every time, wished for something to kill him so that he didn’t have to face his fears, deal with reality. It hits him like his dad’s truck hit the tree.
“Since I was in elementary school,” he admits breathlessly.
Also known as, the eddieravi bestie fic that quickly turned into a character study
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08 May 2026
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The idea comes to him on one of his drives through the mountains.
He’s driving up, and up, and up until the road has a steep, sheer drop on one side, and nobody’s driving alongside him. He’s headed to the top of a mountain. There’s a gravel pull-off right before a hairpin turn. The turn is protected by a flimsy guardrail.
Eddie parks on the pull-off and walks over to look past the guardrail.
Nothing underneath. Just dry underbrush. A shallow stream right at the bottom. Thin vegetation. If a car missed the curve at a fair speed, it would plummet down the cliff. Next to no chance of survival.
And Eddie’s known to drive, to clear his own head. He used to do it to find hiking trails for him and Buck, or roadside attractions or activities that Christopher might like. It’s a known hobby of his. He’s a good driver.
So it’s not convincing if he crashes in good weather. He’ll have to wait for a storm.
But it’ll work. It has to work.
(Or: Eddie and all the ways you shouldn't love your loved ones.)
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- Part 1 of darkness on the edge of town
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13 Apr 2026
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"Hey," Eddie says. "Can we go outside for a minute?"
Buck looks up and his face is carefully neutral, which on Buck is the equivalent of a five-alarm blaze because this man has never been neutral about a single thing in his life.
"Sure."
They leave cash on the table and step out into the parking lot. The air is heavy and thick with honeysuckle and asphalt and the far-off electric promise of rain. The cat is gone and the neon sign buzzes above them, pink and sputtering.
"I don't want to stay here tonight," Eddie says.
Buck’s eyebrows tick up. "Okay?"
Hesitating, cutting a look back at the diner, Eddie says, "Look, I know we were gonna find a motel somewhere around here but this place doesn't sit right with me. I can't explain it. I'd rather just keep driving."
He's bracing for Buck to push back, to ask what specifically feels wrong, use this as a doorway back into the booth and the hand and all of it. But Buck just looks at his face for a second and nods.
"Yeah. Okay. Let's go."
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Buy one Buck kidnapping and get an Eddie kidnapping for free!Can be read as a standalone but is technically a continuation of my fic 'hands on'
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- Part 2 of no grave can hold my body down
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17 Mar 2026
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the wind in the end by haysel
Fandoms: 人渣反派自救系统 - 墨香铜臭 | The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
31 Oct 2024
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Mobei Jun is sick. Shang Qinghua is his caretaker. Neither of them want to accept how this will end, so they don't. They'll be together, whether the earth wants it or not.
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- Part 5 of halloween 2024
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14 Feb 2026
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i close over the secret marks of your fingers by Astrinde
Fandoms: 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
11 Oct 2025
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After discovering the truth of his relationship to Qin Su, Jin Guangyao makes a planned birthday visit to Lan Xichen — and hides his secret agony from the only one he longs to trust.
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- Part 4 of our roots lie intertwined
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11 Jan 2026
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My Body is a Cage (That Keeps Me from Dancing with the One I Love) by everyday_forever
Fandoms: Hannibal (TV)
29 May 2021
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Picking up after Season3Episode7: Digestivo, Hannibal has turned himself in and Will struggles with the conflicting emotions of hating Hannibal while also aching for him. Will is forced to testify as Hannibal is tried and sentenced before the court for his crimes.
But what if, instead of winning his insanity defense and getting the protection of the BSHCI, Hannibal was found both sane and ultimately guilty, thereby subjecting him to the death penalty?
Can Will survive an outcome such as this? Or will he take matters into his own hands to ensure Hannibal's escape?A fic centering on Hannibal's Trial, Will's angst, and an AU for the second half of s3.
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08 Aug 2025
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“Didn’t know you were seeing someone.”
Buck just laughs. Like, honest to god giggles. Eddie is stuck fighting off doubly massive waves of butterflies and confusion, all while Buck just gazes down at him.
“That’s cute,” he hears Buck mumble, just before climbing into the truck, calling Eddie after him.
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or, everyone knows eddie is dating buck except for eddie, literally.
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19 May 2025