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    “You are in bathroom now having panic attack, calling your boyfriend because you just told journalist you are gay?”
    “Fuck you, Ilya,” Shane scoffed.
    “I am just making sure I understand the situation. Okay, okay, you just go out and say you misspoke. You meant to say that you are… gray.”
    “I’m not a fucking paint sample.”
    “Maybe you said that you pray?”
    “I definitely did not say I pray. Also, I’m not religious.”
    “You're not?”
    “Ilya, can you fucking focus?”

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    When Yuna books Shane a sit-down interview with GQ, she has no idea she's about to derail the carefully laid ten-year plan Shane and his secret boyfriend had only just begun to build. Shane never realized how exhausting the secret had become until it slipped out. Suddenly, telling the truth felt just a little more bearable than forcing himself back into hiding.

    This is a story about bravery. About being scared and doing it anyway. About being too exhausted to keep lying. About deciding which truths are finally safe to share, and which must still be protected while real danger remains.

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    15 Sep 2026

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    He shouldn’t look.

    He knows he shouldn’t look.

    But his thumb moves anyway, like it’s not entirely under his control.

    Unknown number (1):

    Hi Jane, welcome to the WAG’s chat, we’ve heard that you and Cap have been dating for a while. So we thought that you should be added too!

    And then, his world collapses two minutes before the game.

    Or:

    Shane Hollander is not a girl.
    He is not Ilya Rozanov’s girlfriend.
    And he is definitely not supposed to be in the Boston WAG group chat.
    Unfortunately, none of that stops anyone else from believing he is.

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    29 Jul 2026

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    Following their coming out, Shane and Ilya spend a whole summer doing interviews, talking about their relationship and about how it will affect hockey.
    The interview season ends with them playing Truth or Drink for a magazine. During the game Shane gets a bit too drunk from all the questions he avoids answering, and he ends up revealing a bit too much about their dynamic, which isn't a big deal usually but Ilya is drunk as well and won't let it go.

    The headlines read: Shane Hollander is a Bottom, but he's not really bothered by them.

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    27 Jul 2026

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    Ilya and Shane marry after Rookie season

    Due to Shane being a little more aware of himself thanks to Yuna, over-prepared mamma bear, explaining all types of sex/attraction to him from a young age (“He needs to be prepared for anything! I am not pigeonholing my son!”), Shane knows he’s crushing on, if not falling for, Ilya.

    The butterfly effect occurs; this has only one outcome really. It’s a small thing. Tiny. When Ilya is not there for Shane’s Rookie of the Year award after-party, Shane is worried, needing to track down the other man, instead of slightly annoyed/upset that he would be without Yuna’s lessons.

    This in turn leads him to not doing shots with Scott Hunter.

    Which means only one thing: other than the whole ‘definitely being aware of falling for your rival’ tiny thing. It shouldn’t change much.

    He is not drunk on that balcony with Ilya.
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    Ilya Rozanov is married, everyone knows this. His wife, Jane, is strict, perfect, stunning, pretty, boring, and Canadian. She’s always too busy to meet the team.

    Shane Hollander is married; some people know this. He doesn’t speak about his wife Lily much, but he’s absolutely smitten with her.

    FULL BLURB AT NOTES TOO LONG

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    22 Jul 2026

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    “I have no idea what you’re talking about,” Shane says truthfully. “Who was staring at me? Rozanov?”

    “Ignore him,” Hayden cuts in. “He thinks you two hooked up at their party.”

    Shane chokes on his water. “I’m sorry, what?”

    Troy studies his face, “You did! I fucking knew it, I’m about to cash in. Kappa Tau has this huge pot going, on whether Rozy has the balls to hook up with another frat brother. I knew he’d be a sucker for your freckles Hollander, he’s always had a thing for you.”

    “Stop!” Shane rushed to say, seeing Troy’s thumbs fly across his phone. He started panicking, “No! No! We did not fucking hook up, what the fuck Barrett?”

    Or the one where Shane and Ilya are presidents of their own respective fraternities and Shane has the stupidest idea to fall for his rival (feat. a pining Shane and whipped Ilya.)

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    20 Mar 2026