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    Shane Hollander loves his future husband. Sure, his future husband is oblivious sometimes, but he means well, and he always listens.

    Ilya Rozanov thinks his future husband doesn’t understand the dark side of hockey. He’s about to learn differently.

    The result: two decisions nobody who even slightly follows the NHL expected their two former rival stars to make.

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    08 Sep 2026

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    Lily: Send me links to your before sex stuff
    Jane: Link
    Jane: Link
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    Jane: Link
    Lily: Wow
    Jane: What???

    Or: Shane is nervous about prepping for their first time hooking up in Boston. Ilya is determined to do everything in his power to be a perfect host.

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    05 Sep 2026

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    If it came down to a choice, Shane and Ilya would always pick each other, even if it meant going against everyone else's expectations and desires. Time and again, they're met with formidable proof that no one would accept their relationship, so down to the wire, Shane and Ilya have a choice to make: Do we stay and make it work? Or do we leave it all behind, and choose a life that gives us a future?
    No choice will make everyone (or anyone) happy, but when you've been hiding so long, how much more can you take when the one thing still worth living for is in reach? Are you willing to hurt the people you love to choose yourself? Are you willing to love the people that have hurt you, if it means loving from afar?

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    Title from Noah Kahan's 'We go way back'

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    01 Sep 2026

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    Shane gasped and stumbled backwards. “Three weeks? You decided-” his hands flew to his mouth. “How could you do this without talking to me? This is what? To punish me because I won’t come out on your timeline?”

    Ilya felt a stab of anger. “You won’t come out on any timeline!”

    Shane blinked at him. “I literally drove here tonight because I wanted to know if you would accept six to twelve months!” 

    “A timeline,” he barked. “This is our lives, Shane. I want to be with you fully now. I know you are scared, but you need to be brave, and I am so deeply fucking unhappy being your dirty little secret.”

    “That’s not fair Ilya, it’s going to be complicated for me. I’m already the only Asian captain in the league! The media, sponsors, the Voyageurs? It’s going to need to be carefully managed-”

    After the Boxing Day fight, Ilya makes an impulsive decision and agrees to a trade to Vancouver, while Shane stays in Montreal and nurses his broken heart. But an ending isn't always an ending, and the spectre of their love burns far too brightly to go down easy. A tale of love, heartache, redemption, and forging the happiness you deserve for yourself.

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    25 Aug 2026

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    “The specific area that was damaged in the fall is what we refer to as the GAF center of the brain.” 

    “GAF?” Ilya asks, puzzled. “Doctor Matthieu, English is not my first language. Can you please speak plainly.”  

    “GAF stands for Give A Fuck.” 

    Ilya’s eyebrows shot to the top of his hairline. “...What?” 

    “I’m afraid that Shane is no longer able to give a fuck.” 

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    After Shane's collision with Cliff Marlow, Shane damages the part of his brain where all of his fucks are stored. No longer able to give a fuck, he confesses his true feelings to Ilya, and says some things to his parents that he normally never would have dared.

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    21 Aug 2026