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  1. Rec 50

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    “You want to go, don’t you?”

    “I think so,” Ryan tells Naim quietly while they lay in bed together, his hair still damp from the shower and soaking into his pillow, “Is that weird?”

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    Ryan finds himself returning to Bandee after the death of his father.

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    26 Aug 2026

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    A thought strikes him, and he wonders if her interest is less to do with curiosity about the shunned family queer, and more to do with something she was scared about herself. The way Ryan had been.

     

    Ryan tilts his head, “What can I do for ya, Grace?”

     

    “Everyone’s been saying…I mean, about you, I don’t know,” her breath quickens and she looks down, her face flushing as she rushes to get her words out, “Are you gay?”

     

    Someone who can fucking say it.

     

    “I reckon, yeah,” Ryan says with a huff of laughter.

  2. Rec 30

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    “That man,” says Phil, “just kissed that other man. On the lips.” He says it like he’s the one who orchestrated the whole thing, the twat.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    once again. not sure what to do with this much emotion. vietnam holiday loveliness <3

  3. Rec 59

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    “Family? Family doesn’t do what you did.” His vision is hazy, he tries to blink the moisture away. “You have no idea what the thing did to us… wanted to do to us. What it tried to do to me, like, multiple times,” Naim says. Sometimes, he can still feel phantom hands pulling at his belt, turning him over, smashing his face into walls, clawing at his hips. Fingers so deep in his throat they scratched his esophagus until he vomited blood. He sniffles. “Fucked up shit, Mum. So much of it.”

    She reaches out to grab his hand. Naim doesn’t pull away. Tears fall for real now, hot and sticky, rolling down both his cheeks. “Mom, how could you do that to me?”

    It’s Christmas eve. Naim’s present to his mother will be their first face to face conversation in almost five years.

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    16 Aug 2026

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    “Merry Christmas,” Ryan says, completely unphased by Naim’s slight weight. He grins cheekily, spinning Naim in a circle in their tiny living room. “Where’s my present?”

    They don’t have money for presents, but that’s not what Ryan’s asking, anyway. Naim takes his face in his hands and kisses him, and kisses him, and kisses him. When he pulls back, they’re both breathless and dizzy.

    “Hey,” Naim says, and kisses him again.

  4. Rec 30

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    “Thank you,” Ryan whispers, the metal of his rings cool against the skin of Naim’s neck. Naim’s hands land on Ryan’s thighs. “I’m, fuck, Naim. I’m not good at this. But I want to be. For you.”

    “Ryan, you don’t-“

    “I do,” Ryan cuts him off, licking his torn bottom lip. “You’re the only person who has taken care of me like this. Only one who wants to. You look at me and you don’t see a fuckup, a loser. You just see me. You’re the only one, Naim.”

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    15 Aug 2026

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    i might cry

  5. Public Bookmark 43

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    “Is Naim’s boyfriend real?”
    Everyone sitting at the table looks up in bewilderment at Slade.

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    What if one of Naim's university friends presents the group with his concern: Does Ryan even exist?

     

    (Inspired by hystericalend's headcanons about future Naim and Ryan.)

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    13 Aug 2026

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    naim's friends think ryan is fake agenda. literally wrote a post about this the other day this was a crazy fun read..reallyreally good