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    At the 2017 All Star Weekend, Ilya takes fate into his own hands to produce at least one out MLH player by the end of the season. Thus begins his part-time side hustle as community organizer, mastermind, and Commander-in-Chief of the Gay Hockey Army.

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      Cover for Somebody to Love by Shadow_lilies
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      Fav cover as of Sept '26

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    Someone somewhere said any two people on earth can be linked with only 6 degrees of separation. Shane played this game in his head sometimes. He would make up maps of these links, just for the exercise of it. What he didn't do was map his connection to Ilya Rozanov, who had yet to walk into his life and crash down all 6 degrees of separation in one reckless fell swoop. Shane didn't know it, but he was already 6 degrees away from Ilya Rozanov. Because Shane was driving to Montreal, and Montreal was where a modeling agency he didn't know the name of was based. And that modeling agency recently put an ad out for a new campaign. That ad was seen by a girl named Svetlana who had curly hair and a quick, smart tongue. And that girl had called her best friend, Ilya Rozanov, and said, “There's work for you in Montreal, if you're good enough.” And Ilya Rozanov had been good enough, and was finally, finally getting out of Moscow after 19 miserable years. And those 6 degrees of separation would soon be just 1, because Ilya Rozanov & Shane Hollander would be existing in the same city without either knowing the other one existed.

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      6 Degrees of Separation
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      Someone somewhere said any two people on earth can be linked with only 6 degrees of separation. Shane played this game in his head sometimes. He would make up maps of these links, just for the exercise of it. What he didn't do was map his connection to Ilya Rozanov, who had yet to walk into his life and crash down all 6 degrees of separation in one reckless fell swoop. Shane didn't know it, but he was already 6 degrees away from Ilya Rozanov. Because Shane was driving to Montreal, and Montreal was where a modeling agency he didn't know the name of was based. And that modeling agency recently put an ad out for a new campaign. That ad was seen by a girl named Svetlana who had curly hair and a quick, smart tongue. And that girl had called her best friend, Ilya Rozanov, and said, “There's work for you in Montreal, if you're good enough.” And Ilya Rozanov had been good enough, and was finally, finally getting out of Moscow after 19 miserable years. And those 6 degrees of separation would soon be just 1, because Ilya Rozanov & Shane Hollander would be existing in the same city without either knowing the other one existed.

      Really loved this. They really have to fight for each other, but are ultimately on the same side. Ilya is a model trying to leave Russia behind, and with design aspirations. Shane is UFC MMA fighter who hasn't realized he's living in the closet yet, but oh boy does Ilya turn the closet lightbulb on. Alexei is an unrepentant dick, who does nothing but make his brothers life worse and get himself and Ilya disowned. David and Yuna are nosy but so supportive. Jackie and Sveta are wonderful and so supportive, even through some serious shit. (Jackie has a gay brother who actually gets a little screen time!)

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    It starts—like most things in his life, apparently—with Rose Landry. More specifically, it starts with Rose Landry drunkenly informing him that Shane was actually, really, really good in bed (for a gay ex-boyfriend, that is).

    This is information Ilya did not expect to receive from her of all people. Unfortunately, now he can't stop thinking about it.

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    Or, Five Times Ilya Rozanov Thinks About Getting Railed and One Time Shane Put Him Through a Mattress

    IT'S BOTTOM ILYA, FOLKS.

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      not so useless after all
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      It starts—like most things in his life, apparently—with Rose Landry. More specifically, it starts with Rose Landry drunkenly informing him that Shane was actually, really, really good in bed (for a gay ex-boyfriend, that is).

      This is information Ilya did not expect to receive from her of all people. Unfortunately, now he can't stop thinking about it.

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      Or, Five Times Ilya Rozanov Thinks About Getting Railed and One Time Shane Put Him Through a Mattress

      IT'S BOTTOM ILYA, FOLKS.

      Y'all. Brilliant slow build to extremely hot Shane hollander coming into his own as a top and Ilya reaching fucking nirvana as a bottom.
      Rose starts the ball rolling with a stellar review of sex with Shane, Hunter and troy confirm it's something you have to try and the thought won't leave Ilya and forces him to look at his hung husband a little differently. Turns out Shane is quite the top.... 🥵 🔥

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      The Deepest Secret Nobody Knows
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      Fantastic pivot from the call where Ilya finds out his father died. Marley calls Jane, Shane responds and runs back to help Ilya out of his panic attack/shutdown.
      Emotional intimacy and fluff abound.
      Series follows them through Shane supporting Ilya after his dad dies, including packing for him (peach to the paste, finding a picture of Irina in his luggage on the way back) meeting Marley and a few other raiders, which goes surprisingly smoothly. Ilya meets the Hollanders. Shane gets outed to his team and nopes the fuck out of there and into the arms of his love.

      Very cute. Only small islands of angst in a sea of adorable fluff. Love it.
      Thank you for pasta! 🍝

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    Shane Hollander had almost made it to morning skate on time.

    Then something ran out in front of his car.

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    Or, the one where Shane finds an injured kitten and takes it to the closest vet, Dr. Ilya Rozanov.

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    Shane Hollander is one of the best search and rescue specialists in North America. He doesn't do private clients. He doesn't do rich adrenaline junkies with camera crews and a death wish. He does, apparently, do forty thousand dollars when his parents need it badly enough. One week on Karanov's summit should be simple. Assess the snowpack, make the call, go home. Then the storm rolls in, the helicopter can't fly, and Shane is stuck in an eleven by nine foot ranger station with Ilya Rozanov — Olympic gold medalist, professional daredevil, and the most infuriating man Shane has ever met.

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      Summit Position
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      Shane Hollander is one of the best search and rescue specialists in North America. He doesn't do private clients. He doesn't do rich adrenaline junkies with camera crews and a death wish. He does, apparently, do forty thousand dollars when his parents need it badly enough. One week on Karanov's summit should be simple. Assess the snowpack, make the call, go home. Then the storm rolls in, the helicopter can't fly, and Shane is stuck in an eleven by nine foot ranger station with Ilya Rozanov — Olympic gold medalist, professional daredevil, and the most infuriating man Shane has ever met.

      Ranger/SAR Shane + Racer turned Backcountry extreme Skier Ilya + summit cabin and a storm that delays his first descent for a week.
      Someone has clearly spent a lot of time outdoors, no glaring inaccuracies that I noticed. Really well done.
      The growing attachment and intimacy is also well done and they are very fucking cute when not being idiots.
      Couldn't put it down.

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    Captain Shane Hollander of the Inheritor, a top-three ship in the Stewardship Fleet, on a spotless record, with a name his family has spent generations protecting. One recordable mistake would end all of it.

    Captain Ilya Rozanov of the Beglets has never wanted any stranger twice. He wants it all, he always gets it. His ship is part of the Iskra Free Combine - former rebels turned loosely organized corp, with loose morals to match, as far as the Stewardship is concerned.

    They meet on Aurelium Station, the planet-sized neutral hub where two rival corps maintain a peace nobody quite believes in. A handshake on a public concourse. A door that seals behind them on a relay station. A captain saying the other captain's given name into his mouth.

    For Shane, every encounter is a small political suicide. For Ilya, every encounter is an internal restructuring he has not asked for. Both corps depend on the corridor. The corridor depends on the equilibrium. And beneath Aurelium's gold-pigmented hull older things are buried than either captain has been taught to look for.

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      The Drift
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      Captain Shane Hollander of the Inheritor, a top-three ship in the Stewardship Fleet, on a spotless record, with a name his family has spent generations protecting. One recordable mistake would end all of it.

      Captain Ilya Rozanov of the Beglets has never wanted any stranger twice. He wants it all, he always gets it. His ship is part of the Iskra Free Combine - former rebels turned loosely organized corp, with loose morals to match, as far as the Stewardship is concerned.

      They meet on Aurelium Station, the planet-sized neutral hub where two rival corps maintain a peace nobody quite believes in. A handshake on a public concourse. A door that seals behind them on a relay station. A captain saying the other captain's given name into his mouth.

      For Shane, every encounter is a small political suicide. For Ilya, every encounter is an internal restructuring he has not asked for. Both corps depend on the corridor. The corridor depends on the equilibrium. And beneath Aurelium's gold-pigmented hull older things are buried than either captain has been taught to look for.

       

      Came over to this from Long Way North. Girl, my dude, what the fuck. This is so good. I'm on the edge of my seat and am completely invested in this world building and their relationship.

      I'm thinking the stewardships plan is going to backfire on them completely and we get a first state sanctioned same-sex marriage. I'm cackling but also worried.
      LRch15
      Y'all. Ok hot sex is hot if vague.
      Ilya...my dude. What trouble have you unleashed by finding the cradle (I assume that's what it actually is) and what the heck did you snatch...red herring, trouble, or salvation?
      LRch17
      Ilya is officially gone on Shane. Shane is grappling with big feelings and failing. Things are emotionally messy.
      LRch18^
      19-21 were dramatic AF and I was so tense.
      LR22
      Buckle up I think we're about to lock in for a wild ride. Stone unlocked, mysterious door unlocked??? Shane and Ilya actually talking? Yyeeessss
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      Things are heating up. The door went to the core of the station and the inside matches the ship Ilya found. The gold stone is a key...and tied to Shane's bloodline???? Fuck me this is really good. TY BK!

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    Ilya Rozanov, celebrated hockey star, gets perilously lost in the wilderness.

    Shane Hollander, wilderness expert and #1 Rozanov hater, finds him.

    They're stuck in the woods. Completely alone. Together.

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      Regolith (metonym)
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      Ilya Rozanov, celebrated hockey star, gets perilously lost in the wilderness.

      Shane Hollander, wilderness expert and #1 Rozanov hater, finds him.

      They're stuck in the woods. Completely alone. Together.

      LRch13
      The boys have been getting to know each other and have both sexy and vulnerable moments. Ilya is getting very attached, Shane is trying not to but deeply failing. They're both kind of falling for each other, but have very different ways of coping with its hypothetical temporary nature.
      Looks like they'll be leaving the wilderness soonish. Really looking forward to seeing where they go from here and how we get them from current real world circumstances toward a HEA.
      ^13
      LRch16
      Conversations have been avoided that perhaps should have been had (dammit Shane and your avoidant ways) then an opps with the knife makes their extraction significantly harder but still possible. Ilya gets them out and back to the boat rendezvous. We'll see where it goes from here.
      LR19
      Ok drama has ensued. Yuna was maybe a little too honest at the hospital and Ilya, heartbroken and misunderstanding, left. Shane and Ilya go back to work both uh a bit lackluster and heartbroken bc they assume the other didn't actually feel aht they were feeling.
      Ilya is leaving drunk voicemails and Shane is determined to get his man back. 🤞
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      Mans is gotten, via an insane strategy of flying to Boston and holding up a sign at a preseason game. But it fucking worked. Now they are going to Ilya's. .... 🔥 Ahead?
      LR21
      Much 🔥, also good talking and being actually vulnerable. Sveta and Shane meet and it goes well. The boys are deeply squishy for each other.

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    In room 1410, Ilya Rozanov is ready to walk out the door after successfully getting his 19 year old hockey rival into bed. He knew how to make this moment happen and he knows what they have to be to each other now that it's over. But as he turns the doorknob to leave, he's stopped with questions he never expected. And giving Shane Hollander what he needs in that moment will change everything.

    I note which chapters are SFW vs NFSW, because many of you said knowing meant the difference between reading this on your lunch break or having to wait. (Thank you for wanting to read my work that much.)

    Covers the first two years of their rookie seasons (which is mostly skipped over in the show/books). Canon divergent from the first hookup seen in HR s01ep01. Most things are from the show but the timeline is a mix of both; Hunter and Marleau are aged up per the show instead of as young as they are in the books. (Also, Shane and Ilya don't wait *two years*, they stick to the book timeline. IYKYK.)

    Please note this will the first in a series; you can subscribe to the whole series as well so you don't miss anything :)

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      Mr. Answer Man
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      In room 1410, Ilya Rozanov is ready to walk out the door after successfully getting his 19 year old hockey rival into bed. He knew how to make this moment happen and he knows what they have to be to each other now that it's over. But as he turns the doorknob to leave, he's stopped with questions he never expected. And giving Shane Hollander what he needs in that moment will change everything.

      I note which chapters are SFW vs NFSW, because many of you said knowing meant the difference between reading this on your lunch break or having to wait. (Thank you for wanting to read my work that much.)

      Covers the first two years of their rookie seasons (which is mostly skipped over in the show/books). Canon divergent from the first hookup seen in HR s01ep01.

      Just finished it. Absolutely fantastic. Does a good job subtly showing Shane's ND bits without making it needlessly dramatic. Ilya is a little more openly needy bc they got to be vulnerable a lot quicker due to Shane asking for clarification.
      Them just talking more really does change things pretty quick even if the overall plot doesn't change that much that fast.
      Looks like shaney boy is finally leaving MTL and ending up somewhere a little closer to his heart and home.

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    It’s the most famous cold case in hockey history. Up-and-coming Russian phenom Ilya Rozanov mysteriously vanishes the summer before his rookie season. Despite extensive police work, no trace of the young superstar is ever found.

    Shane Hollander remembers Ilya Rozanov. Better than most. And now, several years retired and with two highly successful hockey biographies under his belt, he’s taking a crack at the mystery that’s haunted his own career with strings of what-ifs and memories revisited so often they’ve softened like old cotton.

    Perhaps now, with the long eye of perspective between him and those memories, he can unravel the short lifetime of the man poised to become his biggest rival and best kept secret. Travelling to Russia he searches for stories and the answers they hold.

    If only this damn dog that’s apparently a local cryptid would stop raiding his trash cans.

     
    It has wandered this place for years. It knows every stream, every hill, every tree. Every pale, flat face in the place of straight lines. It does not know this face.

    But it remembers dark eyes and star-dots across the cheeks.
    It cannot remember its own name.

    But it remembers him.

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      Don't Feed Me (I will come back)
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      It’s the most famous cold case in hockey history. Up-and-coming Russian phenom Ilya Rozanov mysteriously vanishes the summer before his rookie season. Despite extensive police work, no trace of the young superstar is ever found.

      Shane Hollander remembers Ilya Rozanov. Better than most. And now, several years retired and with two highly successful hockey biographies under his belt, he’s taking a crack at the mystery that’s haunted his own career with strings of what-ifs and memories revisited so often they’ve softened like old cotton.

      Perhaps now, with the long eye of perspective between him and those memories, he can unravel the short lifetime of the man poised to become his biggest rival and best kept secret. Travelling to Russia he searches for stories and the answers they hold.

      If only this damn dog that’s apparently a local cryptid would stop raiding his trash cans.

       

      It has wandered this place for years. It knows every stream, every hill, every tree. Every pale, flat face in the place of straight lines. It does not know this face.

      But it remembers dark eyes and star-dots across the cheeks.
      It cannot remember its own name.

      But it remembers him.

      The mystery and magical realism tags are working really hard here. It's a fun ride and I live the imagery and vibes. Give/take/circular energy transfer with nature and places is such a fun concept to see explored and laid out this way.
      Loved the different perspectives and investigative journalism parts.
      Really well done I enjoyed it thoroughly.

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    Two cosmologists at the bottom of the world.
    Shane Hollander, a Toronto astrophysicist with a careful posture and a careful life, has spent years being good at not-thinking-about other things. Ilya Rozanov, Russian, a postdoc at Fermilab, brilliant and difficult and good at being looked at, has a reputation for being uncomplicated about who he wants and a wound he does not discuss with anyone.
    They meet on the ice. They keep meeting.
    The South Pole is a small place. Six weeks of summer is one thing. Nine months of winter with forty-eight people, no flights in or out, the sun gone since February, is another thing.

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      The Long Way North
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      Two cosmologists at the bottom of the world.
      Shane Hollander, a Toronto astrophysicist with a careful posture and a careful life, has spent years being good at not-thinking-about other things. Ilya Rozanov, Russian, a postdoc at Fermilab, brilliant and difficult and good at being looked at, has a reputation for being uncomplicated about who he wants and a wound he does not discuss with anyone.
      They meet on the ice. They keep meeting.
      The South Pole is a small place. Six weeks of summer is one thing. Nine months of winter with forty-eight people, no flights in or out, the sun gone since February, is another thing.

      9.5/10 love it. Up there for nerdiness with the north slope by NorthernSparrow (I think that's the name?) from my SPN days

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    Shane Hollander volunteered for a firefighter training exercise because it got him a paid day away from spreadsheets.
    He didn't expect to be handed a casualty card.
    He definitely didn't expect to be effortlessly scooped up by firefighter Ilya Rozanov.

    Now Shane can't stop thinking about the handsome rescue specialist with impossible blue eyes, while Ilya can't seem to stop finding reasons to rescue the same volunteer over and over again.

    Turns out asking someone for their number is a lot scarier than running into a burning building.

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      Casualty Card 24
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      Shane Hollander volunteered for a firefighter training exercise because it got him a paid day away from spreadsheets.
      He didn't expect to be handed a casualty card.
      He definitely didn't expect to be effortlessly scooped up by firefighter Ilya Rozanov.

      Now Shane can't stop thinking about the handsome rescue specialist with impossible blue eyes, while Ilya can't seem to stop finding reasons to rescue the same volunteer over and over again.

      Turns out asking someone for their number is a lot scarier than running into a burning building.

      Simple. Absolutely adorable. Had me grinning at my phone like a loon

      LRch7
      Y'all it's so good. They are so sweet together and the sex is so close and warm and lovely. I'm finding myself envious of fanfic versions of fictional characters.
      LRch10
      More good sex and soft caring for each other.
      Now officially together and working through the reality of being a firefighter's partner, including 3am pagers and home fires that bring back Ilya's own childhood trauma.

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    Sabrina Hollander is 13 years old when she puts her brother’s dream in front of her own and promises herself that she’ll never tell a soul about what she’s done.

    Or: How Shane having a little sister he can count on would have changed his story for the rest of his life.

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      The Hollander Girl
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      Sabrina Hollander is 13 years old when she puts her brother’s dream in front of her own and promises herself that she’ll never tell a soul about what she’s done.

      Or: How Shane having a little sister he can count on would have changed his story for the rest of his life.

      Shane's life is considerably tweaked by having a little sister to share it with. Main events so far are following canon, but Sabrina is fucking amazing and I love her so much. (She and cliff are great, her relationship with Ilya as pseudo sister/cheerleader is absolutely adorable)
      LR17 - hit from Marleau, Shane is in the hospital. Ilya visited.
      Finished! (Ch19) Dude this is so good. I love Sabrina and the effects she has on Shane's character and the subtle shifts to the plot.
      I'm so excited for part 2

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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

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    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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      We Just Did It For You And Me
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      Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

      “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

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      Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

      Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

      Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

      As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

      Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

      Ollie is one of my favorite OCs of all time and the relationships between the main trio are just so fucking adorable and tender and sweet. I love them so much.
      I loved reading about Ilya and Shane having the big hard discussions and making things work as grown ass adults, even when it's hard.

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    "There in the photo was a young man in a hammock with a serene lake behind him, bathed in an orange sunset. A book was open in his lap and he was smiling up at the camera, easy and relaxed. Ilya didn’t think he’d ever seen anyone look so effortlessly gorgeous in a pair of ratty sweatpants and a bleach-stained t-shirt. He also didn’t think he’d ever find a personal family photo of Shane Hollander, the up-and-coming hockey sensation from Canada who had gone missing in November of 2008, in a thrift shop in Boston."

    Ilya and Shane never met at world juniors because Shane vanished without a trace. Against all logic, he appears almost two years later in Ilya's dreams. Those dreams begin to blur the line between fiction and reality, becoming muddy and impossible to navigate. As Ilya falls in love with a dead man, he finds that he cares less and less about those lines. When the opportunity to solve the mystery and bring closure to Shane's parents presents itself, Ilya must face whatever reality may truly be, even if that means losing the love of his life for good.

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      "There in the photo was a young man in a hammock with a serene lake behind him, bathed in an orange sunset. A book was open in his lap and he was smiling up at the camera, easy and relaxed. Ilya didn’t think he’d ever seen anyone look so effortlessly gorgeous in a pair of ratty sweatpants and a bleach-stained t-shirt. He also didn’t think he’d ever find a personal family photo of Shane Hollander, the up-and-coming hockey sensation from Canada who had gone missing in November of 2008, in a thrift shop in Boston."

      Ilya and Shane never met at world juniors because Shane vanished without a trace. Against all logic, he appears almost two years later in Ilya's dreams. Those dreams begin to blur the line between fiction and reality, becoming muddy and impossible to navigate. As Ilya falls in love with a dead man, he finds that he cares less and less about those lines. When the opportunity to solve the mystery and bring closure to Shane's parents presents itself, Ilya must face whatever reality may truly be, even if that means losing the love of his life for good.

      I had no idea where this was going at the beginning but I'm glad I trusted the process. It's so good. The touch of magical realism adds a lovely little sparkle to a dark pivot from canon.
      The epilogue is so fucking sweet. I may not have literally cried, but it was a close thing.
      I love it so much.

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    Shane leaves that Vegas penthouse suite feeling wretched, and like an idiot, and like he never wants to see Ilya Rozanov again.

    Except, well. Then there are zombies.

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      oh well, I guess we're gonna find out!
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      Shane leaves that Vegas penthouse suite feeling wretched, and like an idiot, and like he never wants to see Ilya Rozanov again.

      Except, well. Then there are zombies.

      Absolutely fantastic and deeper than I expected for a fairly campy premise.
      I expected more Shaun of the Dead and less Last of Us, but have been very much impressed despite myself.
      Was toward the end of the first chapter when I needed to sleep. Not sure if it was excess caffeine or Zombie-related waking dreams that kept me from sleeping, but my brain kept substituting Ilya and Shane into the Last of Us episode with Bill and Frank. Fucking ow.

      Having now finished the work. It was both difficult to get through and also impossible to put down.
      Really fucking well done. I get the hype. I may even end up rereading it.

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    On the night of 14–15 December 1984, four senior officers of the Soviet ballistic missile submarine K-219, designation Krasnyy Oktyabr', arrived on United States soil. Their defection is assessed as voluntary, premeditated, and of EXCEPTIONAL intelligence value. This event is to be treated as a TIER ONE defection. Unauthorized disclosure will be prosecuted under Executive Order 12333.

    SECTION I — DEFECTING PERSONNEL
    1. Captain First Rank ILYA ROZANOV, 30 years old. Commanding Officer, K-219. Ten years service, Soviet Northern Fleet. Graduate, Frunze Naval Academy, 1972. Rozanov is assessed as the primary architect of the defection. Motivation assessed as ideological disillusionment regarding the Soviet criminalization of homosexuality, compounded by a romantic relationship with [REDACTED].

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      EXECUTIVE SUMMARY
      On the night of 14–15 December 1984, four senior officers of the Soviet ballistic missile submarine K-219, designation Krasnyy Oktyabr', arrived on United States soil. Their defection is assessed as voluntary, premeditated, and of EXCEPTIONAL intelligence value. This event is to be treated as a TIER ONE defection. Unauthorized disclosure will be prosecuted under Executive Order 12333.

      SECTION I — DEFECTING PERSONNEL
      1. Captain First Rank ILYA ROZANOV, 30 years old. Commanding Officer, K-219. Ten years service, Soviet Northern Fleet. Graduate, Frunze Naval Academy, 1972. Rozanov is assessed as the primary architect of the defection. Motivation assessed as ideological disillusionment regarding the Soviet criminalization of homosexuality, compounded by a romantic relationship with [REDACTED].

      Absolutely fascinating and I'm so hooked.
      LRch6

      Ok that was fantastic and the nonlinear structure was interesting.
      Finished 11/11ch

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    "Hi, solnyshko.”
    The Russian pet name set a firework off inside Shane's mind as he heard it cooed from behind him. The intonation was just as he remembered, but the voice was much deeper.

    He turned and felt himself short circuit. It took every ounce of willpower to not let his jaw drop cartoonishly to the floor. Shane would recognize his individual features anywhere, even after 5 years. But it was as if someone had snapped their fingers and the smug, silly Russian boy who had been attached to Shane's hip for 3 summers was transformed into some sort of fucking Adonis right before his eyes.

    “Ilya-” was all Shane managed before strong arms were wrapped around his waist and lifting him off the ground in a greeting all too familiar from years ago.

     

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    When Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov spent their summers as teens in an elite hockey camp, they quickly became inseparable friends. But they lose touch when Shane moves on as a prospect for the NHL and Ilya for the KHL.

    Years later, Montreal makes a bold move to take the hottest player in the KHL. After hearing of the Russian's reputation, the Montreal Captain is tasked with keeping his old best friend and new teammate out of trouble.

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      find your way back home
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      "Hi, solnyshko.”
      The Russian pet name set a firework off inside Shane's mind as he heard it cooed from behind him. The intonation was just as he remembered, but the voice was much deeper.

      He turned and felt himself short circuit. It took every ounce of willpower to not let his jaw drop cartoonishly to the floor. Shane would recognize his individual features anywhere, even after 5 years. But it was as if someone had snapped their fingers and the smug, silly Russian boy who had been attached to Shane's hip for 3 summers was transformed into some sort of fucking Adonis right before his eyes.

      “Ilya-” was all Shane managed before strong arms were wrapped around his waist and lifting him off the ground in a greeting all too familiar from years ago.

       

      OR
      When Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov spent their summers as teens in an elite hockey camp, they quickly became inseparable friends. But they lose touch when Shane moves on as a prospect for the NHL and Ilya for the KHL.

      Years later, Montreal makes a bold move to take the hottest player in the KHL. After hearing of the Russian's reputation, the Montreal Captain is tasked with keeping his old best friend and new teammate out of trouble.

      They are so fucking cute. Jfc.
      Some depth, a bit of drama, but so much fluffy steamy goodness. I love it 😘

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    Sequel to Between the Calls. Please start there.

    The answer, it turns out, is only the beginning. Some answers arrive all at once. Others take shape slowly.

    Another hockey season. New routines, old familiar fears, and a stubborn chiweenie. The ordinary, complicated business of building a life with someone.

     

    This series is a remix of Wolfbird by OpalApparition, written with permission, but will read independently.

    *Thank you to OpalApparition for the permission to write this*

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      Follow up to a rework of Wolfbird where Shane and Ilya meet at the shelter instead of at Wolfbird.

      They've gotten back from a summer at Shane's parents cottage. Ilya is back to working at Wolfbird and volunteering at the shelter.
      Shane is back at the rink in pre-season training.
      Their lives are blended but still with separate bits, I'm curious about what challenges will be coming up next.
      LRch2

      Finished! 11/11ch
      Absolutely lovely. It's funny how the little pivot having them meet at the shelter instead totally changes the dynamic and softens everything.
      Who knows if OA will ever finish the inspo (hopefully with no AI involved this time) but I'm chosing to take this as my head canon of how it should have finished.
      Thank you for giving them a happy ending, or at least a happy for now. Really well done ❤️

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