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    Despite the *obvious* interest on both their parts (standing naked under a shower makes it hard to hide certain feelings) Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov don’t hook up after the CCM shoot. A few years later, when they’re both Captains of their respective teams, Ilya comes out as bisexual. Shane immediately makes his move to lock down the boy he’s had a crush on all this time, before it’s too late. After a surprise at a post-game press conference and a challenge from the Raiders, Shane has to convince Ilya he is serious about having a real relationship in front of professional hockey and the entire internet. Will it work? There’s only one way to find out!

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    09 Sep 2026

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    Hayden Pike is sad. He wants to go to bed with Shane Hollander, the most beautiful man in the MHL, but he can’t seem to score because he is very bad at hockey.

    Hayden Pike probably wrote this. Not Ilya Rozanov. Ilya Rozanov would never do such a thing. Don’t tell his husband.

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    09 Sep 2026

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    🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽

    “Ah, you are afraid?” the angel asks, in a Russian accent.

    Shane doesn’t say anything. He pretends to keep reading even though he never started.

    “Hmm,” the angel says. “I am supposed to tell you, be not afraid. But I do not like telling people what to do.”

    Shane somehow doubts that’s true.

    “Do you have a message for me?” Shane asks, glancing towards the angel now, but only out of the corner of his eyes.

    “Yes, I do,” the angel says. In his limited peripheral vision, Shane can see that the angel’s deep cupid’s bow is now stretched into a broad V by the smug grin spreading across his lips. “Here is the message: you are gay.”

    🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽🪽

     
    Shane Hollander decides to stop playing hockey at 17. Two and half years later, after his 20th birthday, he takes a trip to New York City with his parents and visits the Cloisters, where he meets an enigmatic Russian visitor services staff member with blue eyes and golden curls. And then he has a weird dream about an angel.

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    09 Sep 2026

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    “It really fucking hurt to just be ignored for six months.”

    Ilya looks at him again, nodding as he runs his finger along Shane’s bare collarbone. He shifts so that he’s lying beside Shane more than hovering on top of him, but keeps touching him and doesn’t go far.

    “You can call me sensitive or whatever, but I don’t think I can do this if you’re just going to ignore me for another six months or however long after we say goodbye tonight.” Shane continues, trying to subtly wipe his wet eyes but of course Ilya notices.

    “Hollander-” He reaches up to wipe the tears away, but Shane lightly pushes his hand away and shakes his head.

    “I guess I’m not cut out for casual.” He whispers. “Because this has never really felt like nothing to me, and I can’t pretend that it is. You aren’t nothing to me.”

    or, the boys talk in Vegas because they can't fight their feelings anymore.

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    08 Sep 2026

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    He called Jackie. “Hey babe, are you still in a group chat with Wyatt Hayes’s wife? Yeah, Lisa, whatever. Listen, I need you to get Ilya Rozanov’s home address from her. What? No, I was kidding when I said I wished him bodily harm. Mostly. Look, I’ll explain later. Love you.”

    He turned on the car and briefly rested his forehead on the steering wheel, groaning.

    “Shane,” he muttered, “you absolute lovesick fool. I can’t believe I have to do this.”

    Shane Hollander has never heard of Ilya Rozanov until the KHL star lands in Canada.

    They hook up. They catch feelings. Shane runs.

    Ilya probably shouldn’t take relationship advice from Hayden Pike, but options are limited.

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    08 Sep 2026

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    Rival dog-sled mushers Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander are competing in the dangerous Yukon Quest race when Ilya loses control and crashes off the trail. Shane happens upon him and saves his life, but a blizzard has moved in, and they must seek shelter together. Ilya is injured, and Shane must care for him while keeping them both alive.

    OR: Shane and Ilya get trapped in a blizzard and “kiss” in a cave.

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    08 Sep 2026

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    “I was thinking,” Shane says without looking up from his salmon, “about how you guys said it was okay if I wanted to bring someone over for Christmas?”

    Yuna gasps sharply, but David speaks before she can. “Of course, son.” He says warmly. “Do you have someone you want to invite?”

    Shane nods slowly, eyes still glued to his plate. He takes a deep breath before looking up, not quite meeting David or Yuna’s eyes, but rather staring off at the space between them. “Can we have Christmas at the cottage? I’m… I mean, we are pretty private and I don’t want to have to explain to the neighbors—”

    His son is blushing bright red, but all David can think about is ‘we’. Since when are Shane and this mystery person a ‘we’? Just how serious is this relationship?

    He had noticed that Shane’s on his phone a lot. That on the rare occasion that David manages to stir the conversation away from hockey, Shane would bring up things he’d never shown interest in before: movies about racing cars or international music.

    David had figured that there was someone in his son’s life, but not that they were a ‘we’.

     

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    How Yuna and David come to adopt their second son

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    08 Sep 2026

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    How did he let this happen?

    Shane's not sure.

    One moment, he was on the gym floor not staring at Rozanov's gorgeous sweaty body. Then Shane was standing up, but his legs were weak for some god forsaken reason and Rozanov was there, just an arm around his waist to keep him upright, and now...

    Well.

    Now Shane's on his knees on the floor of Ilya Rozanov's shower.

     

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    Heated Rivalry, but the boys are forced to have an honest conversation around 8 years earlier than they do in canon.

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    08 Sep 2026

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    08 Sep 2026

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    “But we have always kissed, we -”

    “I know.” Shane says, face blushing crimson. “But like I said, I don’t want to do that anymore. We can still see each other, because I like what we do, but we have to keep that part out of it. Please.”

    Ilya breathes in and out. He tries to be rational. Shane’s requesting that something change in their arrangement. It should be a simple answer. Yes. Of course. If that’s a boundary he wants to set, then Ilya should obey it.

    But the feeling of loss is so overwhelming he can barely stomach it.

    or, after Vegas, Shane doesn't let Ilya kiss him anymore when they hook up. Ilya doesn't take it very well.

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    08 Sep 2026

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    “You should train together in the off-season.”

    Ilya lifted his head off Svetlana’s lap. “What?”

    “If your Canadian really wants to marry you someday, you might as well get used to spending your summers together,” she said, smooth and practical as ever. “You need to fix your public relationship from rivals to friends, and being publicly seen together will help. You need a new trainer anyway, now that you aren’t going to Russia.”
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    Or: Svetlana knows who Jane is. And it changes everything because she is smarter than both of these idiots.

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    07 Sep 2026

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    Now that Shane has started his sophomore year at Boston University, he wants nothing but to focus on his classes, play hockey, and forget about The Incident that happened at the end of his freshman year. Of course that would be easier without Ilya Rozanov, who lives in the same frat house as him, reminding him of it every three seconds.

    Ilya wants to finish his studies and go pro. His father is paying for him to be here on the condition that he passes all his classes before signing a contract. He should be focusing on that rather than thinking about the boy two doors down from his bedroom.

    And what's the best way to get over someone you can't stop thinking about? Get under them of course.

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    07 Sep 2026

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    06 Sep 2026

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    It took a moment for Ilya’s brain to catch up.

    “My father knows about me and Shane?”

    “The whole world knows about you and Shane! Did you not hear me?”

    Or: Shane's phone is stolen in Sochi. They're outed and and have to go on the run together to get out of Russia before being caught by the Russian authorities.

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    06 Sep 2026

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    “Well, Rozanov can’t afford the rehab he needs to get back to the league,” Shane said. “So I’ll pay for it.”
    “And—” Ilya began.
    “And whatever else he needs to get by until he gets himself another contract,” Shane said. As Shane spoke, Ilya largely kept his eyes on the money manager. He’d never gotten to watch someone realize Shane was insane before.

    The reigning NHL MVP can't cover the costs of his recovery after getting in an off-season car wreck. Shane adds Ilya Rozanov to his investment portfolio.

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    06 Sep 2026

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    Shane thought that by the time he was thirty, he’d be married and on the waitlist to adopt a baby. He spent his twenties in one serious longterm relationship after another, after all.

    Instead he is now twenty-nine, single for over a year and looking for a nice, stable boyfriend: preferably college educated and in the same place in life as he is.

    The only problem is that the bartender at the restaurant Shane takes his dates to is the hottest man Shane has ever seen in his life.

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    05 Sep 2026

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    Shane was twelve when hockey scouts started showing up to his games. He was barely fifteen when a check went horribly wrong, fucked his knee to hell and gave him a grade III concussion. During rehab he found swimming, and he was seventeen when he went to the Olympics as a relay-only swimmer who only swam the prelims.

    He’s 24 and working for his mom’s sports PR company when he meets Ilya Fucking Rozanov.

    May contain: Shane Hollander navigating what it means to be mostly normal when your whole childhood was about preparing you for greatness. Shane Hollander attempting to flirt. Possibly less than 100% accurate descriptions of what a sports PR agent does.

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    04 Sep 2026

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    This is a companion piece to “You Fill Up My Senses”, told from the perspective of the Russian Lover-Boy himself, Ilya Rozanov. You don’t have to read that first, but it would provide some context :)

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    They made eye contact, and for the first time that night, Ilya finally saw a Shane he recognized looking back. He was being assessed. Brown eyes flooded with emotion finally, a tragic mixture of anger, uncertainty, fear, with just a hint of longing tucked in there. Ultimately, resolve won over any other emotion. Shane took a deep breath as they skated to the face-off circle. He spoke quietly, his words meant for only one person.

    “Well. I came out to the team as gay a few weeks ago. Apparently they decided they’d rather spend their time calling me a ‘geisha whore’ and standing around than doing their fucking jobs.”

    His voice was low, but steely. Jagged with hurt and betrayal. Ilya’s stomach dropped. His chest tightened, his vision blurred. How could they…? He could feel himself breathing hard and fast, anger coursing through his lungs. He thought of All-Stars. The crinkled eyes. The gardenia. Someone would pay for this. Many people would pay for this, if he had something to say about it.

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    04 Sep 2026

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    “-can’t see each other again,” Ilya says, looking only at Shane’s hand, holding it so, so gently and stroking over Shane’s skin so, so softly. The soothing feeling of it makes it very hard to focus, but Shane tries very hard to do it anyway. “I tried-we tried, but this can’t happen again.” It takes a moment, but Shane finally manages to make sense of the words, and he lets out a soft noise of understanding.

    Ah. He’s apologizing that he won’t be able to see Shane in the hospital again before he leaves.

    “I understand,” he says, and he does. It was probably really hard for Ilya to get here even once, and it can’t be very long before his plane leaves. He’s sad, of course–they didn’t even get to spend time together, really–but it’s not like this will be the last chance they ever have to see each other. He gives Ilya his best attempt at a smile, and if it comes out a little sad, too, all Ilya does is reach out to stroke the backs of his fingers gently over his cheek.

    (ilya goes through with his plan to break up with shane in the hospital) (the problem? shane is too high to understand that he's being broken up with)

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    03 Sep 2026

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    Nothing happening in that moment, on that bench, almost midway through the 3rd period down fucking 7-1 to the fucking Scouts, was impulse.

    It was just the next logical step in a degradation that's been a long time coming. The slow dissolution of Shane's loyalty to the Montreal Metros.

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    03 Sep 2026

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