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There is something from an Ottawa Centaurs email, titled 'conversation.'
For a moment, he strongly considers deleting it. Shane no longer owes a single part of the MLH a damn thing, nor does he expect anything from it. His exit from the league is -- well. People aren't motivated to bring it up.
The sender is listed as Wiebe, B.
Shane clicks on the message.
Ten years ago Shane lost it all. He has to decide what, if anything, he wants back.
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Bookmarked by jonquila
14 Sep 2026
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This is a bittersweet and beautiful canon divergent look at returning to the league that devastated Shane and Ilya. Ten years on from a universe in which no team signs Shane after they're outed, Shane is considering returning to coaching for Ottawa.
In all the deluge of fic I've read in this fandom, this is somehow the first story I've read in which being outed ends their hockey careers but not their relationship. It's a great concept, meaningfully explored here. The shape of Shane and Ilya's relationship is well depicted, first in happy days and then as they weather conflict.
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I feel like he truly only likes me for my ass, Shane thinks. But thankfully, there’s just enough of his brain-to-mouth filter still working well enough to translate that to, “I feel like she truly only likes me for my dick. But maybe I wanna cuddle after or some shit. Is that a crime?”
“Absolutely not, Hollander. You should get all the cuddles you want after a good fuck.” Cliff raises his glass and winks.
He can't believe he's really just talking to Rozanov’s teammate and friend about him. Not that he knows it’s about Rozanov, but still.
Shane's never having vodka ever again. But for now, he’ll let it lower his inhibitions—if only to get all of this off his chest. Maybe then it’d stop fucking aching.
shane strikes up an unlikely friendship with cliff marleau after he walks out of ilya’s penthouse suite in vegas feeling worthless. it’s all fairly innocent at first, until a threesome with shane and a woman awakens something in cliff that he’s never even thought about before. he confides in ilya without revealing who his secret gay awakening was, but ilya connects the dots anyway and goes on a jealous rampage before finally confronting his feelings for shane.
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Bookmarked by jonquila
14 Sep 2026
Bookmarker's Notes
This is a fun and sweet story with some fabulous Shane/Ilya pining and a delightful Cliff. I like the fact that Shane sleeping with Cliff provides them with a common friend once the angst is settled. I like that the pining takes a different shape here but the end game stays the same. I like Shane having the chance for some satisfying, non-fraught sex before he and Ilya go exclusive. Good stuff.
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Into the Blue by librarytiger
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
29 Aug 2026
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With the first overall selection of the 2010 NHL draft, the New York Admirals are proud to select Shane Hollander.
“Ah, New York! New York is nice, yes?”
“Uh, yeah, I guess. I haven’t really spent much time there. Yet, I guess.”
“I am also moving to New York.”
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On the night of the NHL draft, Shane Hollander goes to the gym. Ilya Rozanov may not be a hockey player, but somehow he is there, in Shane’s orbit, in New York, under his skin.
Or, how more proximity can turn a fuck buddy into a best friend, but falling in love is always hard.
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- Part 1 of in new york, you can try things
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30 Aug 2026
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Thoughtfully designed AU that keeps the boys in character. Because they spend so much more time together than the canon characters, there's a bit of a "seven YEARS of misunderstandings" hurdle to explain keeping them in a much more intimate situationship but having that be salvageable. This story does that well, though. It's stressful, but also fun and sweet and enjoyable to read.
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Beneficiaries by 409_conflict
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
11 Sep 2026
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Following an afternoon of sex and tuna melts, Shane goes searching for the explicit rules of what being 'friends with benefits' entails. In his humble opinion, they're nailing it.
Once friendship is on the table, Shane reconsiders the usefulness and immutability of the public rivalry narrative. Surely the NHL can make just as much money from a bromance as it can from a rivalry?
A missed call from J.J., a dinner at All-Stars, and an ill-considered mad dash to the airport send Shane's season in a very different direction to the disciplined three-peat he'd been planning back in October.
"This rivalry thing: it was everyone else who said we hated each other off the ice. There’s no rule that says we have to keep doing that forever.” Shane stared outside, past the blinding billboards and down at the streets below. “It was nice. Hanging out, last time.”
He knew what it looked like when Rozanov shut down, when he closed himself off and pushed the world away. He’d finish the conversation abruptly, curt, clipped, and retreat. So Shane knew he’d won when Rozanov finally answered with: “Are we six years old, Hollander? Asking if I want to play in sandbox with you?"
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Bookmarked by jonquila
12 Sep 2026
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Lots of interesting ideas about self-perception and grief all wrapped in a sweet story wherein Shane and Ilya take their friendship public to very little pushback, and then lots of other things happen.
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Yuna Hollander has always loved hockey, from the first time her father sat her in front of a television screen to watch a game after dinner. It was the one thing she most looked forward to passing on to her own children, and she’s grateful that Shane took to it the way he did. She’s proud of everything he’s accomplished and will accomplish, and of the man he’s becoming. So, when Shane tells her, the summer before his rookie season, that he’s gay, she’s determined to do everything she can to ensure that his identity won’t keep him from what matters most to him: hockey.
Over the course of his rookie season, Yuna helps Shane navigate the politics of the MLH and make plans for his future, a future she becomes increasingly certain is going to feature Ilya Rozanov in a starring role.- Language:
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Bookmarked by jonquila
10 Sep 2026