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  1. Public Bookmark 13

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    louis is dealing with extreme paranoia and nightmares several years after the beheading that make him feel he is losing his sanity. lestat draws his own conclusions out of louis’ behaviors

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    01 Sep 2026

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    this is sooo fascinating and such a unique concept that gillstolunks has written so well!!! i've seen fandom speculate about whether or not louis was schizophrenic and if lestat turning him locked him into that state for forever, especially when it comes to the existence of dreamstat. but this is the first fanfic i've ever read that actually explores anything like that as a complete story. and my heart breaks for both of them even as it's mended by how gillstolungs writes their physical intimacy. holding hands while arguing. post-argument cuddles on the couch. laying in each other's laps. lestat putting louis' hair in cornrows. omggggg it's all just so *squishes gillstolungs' cheeks together in an act of cuteness agression* :3

  2. Public Bookmark 9

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    “I’m getting too high for this conversation now.”

    “The kids say a lot about gender. That it’s not the same as your sex, which you are born with. Gender is a performance, they say,” Lestat scoffed. “What is that supposed to mean? I am an actor. Shouldn’t I know when I am performing?”

    “Depends, do you ever get tired when you’re performing?”

    Louis and Lestat decide to get high and fall into a conversation about what gender even means. Silly hijinks ensue.

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    26 Aug 2026

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    my god this is cute! literally the cutest loustat fic i've read in a while!!! i love the way you write them in their domestic bliss because it highlights that part of their relationship that i love without denying the monstrous parts of them i also love so much. bonus points for louis and lestat getting to be all philosophical about gender identity why still affirming lestat's genuine desire to play around with gender expression. every moment of reading this felt like a dream :3

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    “And I couldn't just sit there and let it happen again, Lestat, I couldn’t watch her die- Couldn’t watch him hurt you-”

    “Louis-”

    “Wasn’t even worried about me. Woulda let him throw his psychotic tantrum and never said shit. All I could think about was you, where your fuckin’ head was. How we found our way back again just to lose it all over-”

    “Louis. Mon cher.” Louis’ eyes slipped closed, the pleasure of hearing those words for the first time in nearly a century seeping calm into him like nothing else could. “It’s alright. I’m here. We are here.”

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    Louis is shaken in the aftermath of the butcher shop. There are wounds even blood cannot heal.

    Fortunately, Lestat has never loved Louis by halves.

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    24 Jul 2026

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    this fic truly has everything i'm craving right now. louis standing up for lestat against gabriella. lestat taking louis flying, louis having a flashback to the drop, and lestat doing it right this time by actually catching him when he falls. louis getting to share his hurt from what armand did to him, and lestat being outraged on his behalf. loustat gentle sex. louis using the cloud gift. loustat giggly sex. my gawd i could go on. but i'm saying all that to say that i'm just really happy this fic exists. now i'm gonna bookmark it so i can read it again and again and again -- especially when akasha shows up and really puts my emotions through the ringer.

  4. Public Bookmark 45

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    “He should’ve known, he just should’ve known.

    The maker fledgling bond was special but he just thought it was Louis coming back from getting more newspapers to sulk over Claudia some more but it wasn’t and he should’ve known because it didn’t feel the same: his heart didn’t fall into that comforting rhythm… the only comfort in this house these days.

    But he should’ve known it was Claudia at the door but when he opened it he saw her, still looking like that child he had turned so many years ago but the way she held herself, the look in her eye, was that of a woman.”

     

    Or what if Louis wasn’t home when Claudia came back in episode 5? What if the fight never happened?

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    17 Jun 2026

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    the kind of dream scenario that only works in a fanfic. claudia finally getting the love, respect, and support from her fathers that she deserved. lestat opening up about his trauma to his unholy family while he still had the chance. louis being there for both of them but also getting to talk his shit about the affair. ughhh chapter 4 literally made my cry. i love this with my whole heart.

  5. Public Bookmark 27

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    When he returned to the hotel, dawn was bleeding into the sky. The windows glowed faintly. He opened the balcony doors and stepped out.

    The first rays touched the floorboards, shy but steady.

    He didn’t scream.

    Magnus had leapt into his own hell, laughing. Nikki had danced into his, singing. Claudia had looked into his eyes with defiance. And Lestat – Lestat had fallen into his, a hollow man adrift, burning like a curse he could never lift.

    5 times Lestat sees burns as self-punishment. Fire, pain and the compulsion to hurt. One time Louis is there to help.

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    17 Nov 2025

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    omg for some reason it hadn't occurred to me that lestat lost so many people he loved to burning. and almost back-to-back! oh my sweet lestat 😭 this is the most beautifully visceral reading experience i've had in a long time. amazing!!!